Friendship define as the state of being friends.
so what is FRIEND is all about?
A person you know well and regard with affection and trust
An associate who provides assistance
A person with whom you are acquainted
Truthfully, deep in my heart, I do have doubt in things called FRIEND and FRIENDSHIP. My trust towards FRIEND and FRIENSHIP is fading from time to time. But I do hope there person (s) in this world who can let me believe these FRIEND and FRIENDSHIP again. I pray he/she prove that I am wrong and he/she wont let my trust towards friend and FRIENDSHIP fall apart.
I realized that, I am now most likely treat FRIEND or FRIENDSHIP in such bussiness manner. Like Donald Trump said "There nothing personal. It’s all about business". It scary to thing that I would come to that stage and became a person who are losing confidence in human relationship.
May be I just act so defensive to avoid myself hurt by FRIEND(s) and FRIENDSHIP. Experience did taught me a lot. Perhaps, acting defensively is good to protect myself. Treating it without personal emotion would let me take things happen as nothing. It wont let me down if a person exploiting me, hurting me or using me as long as I treat them in bussiness manner as all transaction is just a trade. A person who give should get a pay.
Writing all these is not admitting that I am totally losing confidence in human relationship but yet I am myself in stage of figuring out what is FRIEND and FRIENDSHIP is all about. Just express my dissapointment to cure the pain in my heart and not to blame others.
It’s kind of lonely. Loneliness and emptiness in my heart. I would bear it all till the end of time.Well, me myself is not a good friend either…
