The Whole Nine Yards

Rejection (Noun) : The act of rejecting something

Reject (Verb) : Refuse to accept or acknowledge / Dismiss from consideration / Deem wrong or inappropriate / Turn Down / Turn away

I believed none of us do like to be rejected either  for our proposal, suggestion, opinion etc.

Rejection - just think of it make us reluctant to share or offering anything in our mind with another person.

It’s bitter. It’s a human being, we become more defensive when we aware any possibility to harm and hurt ourselves physically, emotion etc.

Rejection, certain people may take it as failure. Certain may have no feeling about it. Well, just give another trial or let’s it go. Just deal with it. It’s normal.

Life is not going to end because a rejection. Everyday we have it anyway. Parents may not like your lovely boyfriend. Husband or wife may reject each other plan to “balik kampung” in their own kampung. Boyfriend may not like your menu for dinner tonight. Friends may not like your vacation plan this semester break. The bosses perhaps do not like your ideas & methodology. Re-do it and I wanna see it on my table tomorrow (usual drama script hehehe).

Keep positive. just give a try. We would not know the result till we try. If yes, it’s good. If not, check it. We may do better in other way? Perhaps, I would not have a boyfriend today if I did not ask him to be one, few month ago.

2008 is going to end soon. Just recap and encouraging myself to think more positive than before. I should build in “dare to fail” attitude inside myself. Wish I can said more YES than NO in Year 2009.

Hmm, should find some time to watch YES MAN movie soon. Too tired to go when a colleague offer free ticket last week. What a waste. Should say YES, so I can keep that money for another movie.

This post written on 17 Dec 2008 but due to internet connection error on that day, I not manage to post it and I did not realized that it kept in the draft till today. Since I have wrote it, just post it. No harm anyway….

Recently I realized that I keep having short memory experience. Many causes possibly lead to this situation such as my mind and physical is totally divide two division which doing different thing and caused me not remember both action done and confuse between both things I do.

It seems like my brain not really control my body reaction and action or I’m reacting in half conscious.

Well, when you in love, it’s normal to have long phone conversation e.g 45minutes time. Actually, we just utilizing Happy Prepaid offer max 45minute/99cent. What happen is I not remember what I’m talking about for half of the conversation and the next morning I wandering either I did talk to him on phone or not. The contents of conversation…hmmm…I myself doubt on my own memory. It does not matter if you call me when I was sleeping or yet to bed at that time. It may happen. I think it’s the best idea if somebody wanna made some investigation cause I may leak the information unconsciously.

The worst thing is yesterday. After helping an uncle who seems blur doing car park payment, it seems that the “blur” was transferring to myself. I still not satisfied till this second on what I can remember for almost3-5 minutes event. I remember I did car park payment, balance payment but doubt on either I collect the car park ticket for exit and caused the ticket is lost, I ended up paying RM30 just for my carelessness or this short memory symptom.

I think I should focus more in future. Perhaps I’m totally a random person in thinking and doing. I do not want one day I end up cannot differentiate reality, fantasy, wish and the fact is.

Argh…I just can spend those RM30 for 1 week parking …waaaa….so sad. Anyway, it does happen and nothing I can do to avoid it happen. just leave it here…

Oooh, Whoa, Whoa, Ooh, Ooh, Whoa, Whoa

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside
it was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me
It’s just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you’re all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing could go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch your breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I’m trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush aint going away, going away

Has it ever crossed your mind
When were hangin, spending time girl,
Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it’s a chance we’ve gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, And Ever

Do you ever think
When you’re all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch your breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I’m trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush aint going away, going away

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you’re all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch your breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I’m trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush aint going away
This crush aint going away
Going away
Going away
Going away
Going away
Going away

Crush by David Archuleta